Christmas Party and Carrolling!

HEy y'all! tonight was th zym christmas party and carrolling! it was so much fun. I got extremely upset w/ sum people who could n't keep their hands to themselves. for their protectiong i'm going to give them fake names... *P* and *L*. P could n't stop flirting w/ L. Non-stop for i dunno 3 hours! I kinda like P, but after seeing the way he conducted himself around L, it just made me sick to know that 1. he doesn't like me and 2. he likes flirting, so if anyhting did happen between us, there was no guarrantee that he wouldn't cheat on me w/ another girl! it's just infuriating! if u've been in this situation u know exactly how i feel. He was sitting there, right infront of me, playing with her hands, and laughing at everything she said, and i was sitting there w/ my heart sinking at every chuckle. The worst part is that he knows that i like him, and he still brings these gurls w/ him places and flaunts them around like they are his pride and joy. He does the same thing w/ L's sister M... it's enough to make me insane! i know i should be happy w/ my life, but i just like him, and w/ him doing stuff like that... well, it's just hard. I know i know, i have a secret admirer and stuff (which i think is a complete joke... no one likes me as more than a friend. i'm just not what guys are looking for.), it's just difficult to think that my "friends" at school and other places are hurting me. My heart breaks everytime sumthing liek this happens. I just really needed to let all this out in writing... sorry! i know it's boring, but not many people read this anyway. Have a great day, a merry christmas, and a very happy new year! .:*Suzy*:. (ps: emily, i know u know who i was talking about, but plz don't say anything)